Hm...I'm not so sure if what I say will make sense, but, has anyone had a feeling of wanting to be heard, and no matter how many times they wrote down word, or how many times they spoke to someone about their feelings, it still felt like it wasn't enough?

Well, I've been feeling that way lately. Sometimes I feel like I won't be happy. I continue to think that meeting a special someone will make me happy, but there is doubt in my mind that that is not the case.

I also realized that I don't think art is my way of expressing myself. It is just something I love to do from time to time. But, lately, I'm starting to feel something, something strane pushing me in another direction of confusion and uncertainty.

I would listen to music and hear how they would sing with such passion, that sometimes I would pick-up on notes, but at the same time be a bit upset that I can not do that.

I've tried poetry, I've tried writing musical lyrics,and even drawing, I can not express myself. Maybe I am holding back. I'm just hoping that soon I can find what it is that I can do to express myself. So, i will spend this last few days trying, once again, to find myself.